Humbly Asked Her To Remove Our Shortcomings
How will I ask the God of my understanding to remove my shortcomings? I had a ritual in mind, involving the seven gates that Innana passed through in her hubris to challenge her sister Ereshkegal, Lady of the Underworld. At each of these gates, she had to leave something behind. Ereshkegal struck her down after she was led through naked on her hands and knees and Enki had to come rescue her. Going back through, she gained aspects of wisdom after a hard lesson learned (her sister pretty much kicked her ass). This myth is congruent to the challenges of life. We as humans face an average of seven in our lifetime (though by no means is that number set in stone). Each time we come back stronger, or at the very least changed. I want to recover with grace, not be deformed by the very madness that makes me myself.
Can other recovering addicts help me figure out how I’m going to ask? Have I asked them to share their experience, strength, and hope with me? Have I asked my sponsor for guidance? Elaine is pretty oblivious to Pagan thought, though Camilla might have some insight. Unfortunately Camilla lives in Millerton, about two hours away, and is very busy caring for her deathly ill partner. She doesn't return phone calls often, and is one of the only other Wiccans I know within the program. This may have to be a solitary ritual. Elaine has offered to help, though her lack of knowledge in the area has proven quite and obstacle. I can't keep putting this off. If I have to do it by myself, then so mote it be.
The more we change, everything stays the same